anxiety girl

Maybe it's the girls growing up or a midlife crisis, but I have been struggling with anxiety for about a month now. It's really hard to admit to people. It's like an embarrassing secret I never want people to know about me. But, not talking about it isn't helping. Maybe it's good to get it off my chest. 

I've had anxiety issues for several years now. And I had it pretty much under control for a long time. I never knew that it was about to sneak up on me in a big way. 

Panic attacks are the craziest, most awful things I have ever been through. I used to be able to stop them from coming on, but not lately. 

The girls and Jon have been amazingly understanding. There's no way I could ever thank them enough for being so patient and comforting to me. Even work has been so great about the whole situation. 

I would appreciate any prayers or happy thoughts my way. Laughter has been in short supply for me lately. It's so easy to say to think positive thoughts and to calm down. Or just have faith. Doing it is so much more difficult. I would go to any length to make this go away. 

Prayers for my sweet family are also greatly appreciated. They could certainly take a break from my crazy anxiety! 

I love and appreciate my life, family and friends. I know how blessed I am and I am truly thankful for everything in my life. So it's very hard to go through this. It's debilitating and depressing. 

Thank you, and I will keep you up to date on my progress. Love and prayers to you all!!